My Son

•October 24, 2008 • 2 Comments

I never feel unhappy having a son, in fact we’re (my husb and myself) very happy with our production (haha), our SON. And I NEVER trivialise my son, NOT AT ALL. You’re not me, so don’t assume me. Really. I give up telling people who doubt me, who judge me, Japheth is MY priority. It’s a mistake at first to have sex without protection, but I’m not going to dwell on it, but improve the situation, since Japheth is my child, my life. How a mother feels, I feel the same. Don’t despise. Don’t tell me anymore you’re not, because you are, indirectly, unknowingly. If you really aren’t, you are still giving me (and others who have a child unprepared) the impression. This life of mine though different from your beautiful life, I’m working really hard for the best of my husband, myself and not to even mention my son. It doesn’t work to give people the impression you’re looking down on teenage mums. If no solution, then let me do what I can for the best of my family. I’m not regretting, but working on a solution to make Japheth’s life the best.

You don’t have the rights to make assumptions about mummy Jingle. All the “I think, I feel” are too opinionated, because you simply don’t know how I feel. Those who has a child at this age (like Evelyn), she understands the mother part of me inside out. And I’m so very sure, she will never say whatever you’ve said to me, because she understands. Don’t say things like, it’s a mistake of the past, you should or shouldn’t this and that. Please, we’re working on the situation, what’s the point of saying redundant stuffs when we can’t turn back time? I can’t regret and thus, once again, I’m working very hard, I really am.

blessed little woman at 130th

•October 2, 2008 • Leave a Comment

 
22 February 2007

忽然间知道,爱你的人其实比你知道他爱你更爱你是件无敌快乐和幸福的事。 幸福!!

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134867346th

•September 26, 2008 • 4 Comments

3 names on your mind:
1. Chan Yang
2. Japheth
3. don’t have!

3 things you’re wearing right now:
1. Purple top.
2. Watch
3. Jeans

3 things you can’t live without:
1. Yang’bb
2. Japhethboyyy
3. Money

What’s your favorite cake?
- Anything chocolatey. (Stereotype. Girls. Tsk!)

Are you currently in a relationship?
Yes.

Have you been given a rose?
Yes.

What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
Fly me to Polaris!

Have you ever been in love?
Yes.

Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
No. But I’ve.

What/who is your current problem?
Financially lor.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
Hell yes.

Your thoughts of online or long distance relationships?
Games of deceit.

How many kids do you want to have?
Two! Japhethboyyy shall have a younger brother in 4 years’ time! (:

What is/are your favorite color(s)?
Black, white & gold.

Do you believe you only love once?
Yes.

Have you seen a friend as more than a friend?
Yes. I always do that.

Do you believe on the statement ‘once a cheater, always a cheater’?
I don’t know, but I hope not. I cheated before, but I won’t now. Now as in NOW. The future is too beclouded for me to answer this and my own question.

Are you and your ex(s) friends?
Wq & Zy are. The rest all not. How difficult it is to rule your own mind when you need companion but your most loved one is never around & is the one who made your heart breaks? Worse, if the companion you need is just a few blocks away?! Tsk!

5 things inside your mind:
1. I don’t want a maid for my son. I strictly want Ling’s mum to continue to take great care of him. I don’t mind paying more, I don’t want to take the risk of I could probably hire a dangerous one. My son’s too precious to me to take this risk. I’m sorry b.
2. What to eat for lunch?
3. I need to get new office pants!
4. I think I want to get those fat beaded bracelets.
5. Am I meeting my dear husband later after work at Yishun?

At what age did you start liking the opposite sex?
When I was in kindergarten! I remember! HA HA!

What song do you want to be played on your wedding?
Cy wanted to sing a duet like 你最珍贵 on our chinese wedding ceremony. Haha. Can you even imagine?! Anyw, I don’t know leh. We discussed about it before but always change our minds.

Do you like anyone right now?
Yes.

 

*Got this from Eve!

How?

•September 25, 2008 • Leave a Comment

I haven’t been celebrating birthdays, i’m sorry Ziyang.

I’m in deep shit with financial problems.

I call out for nobody when I feel extremely depressed.

I tried, I did tried. We all give up trying, you know.

可能打从一开始我们就不适合,因为人的年龄会长大,走的路不一样(不在乎谁选择了什么路),既然选择了这条路,我真的不能回头了。对不起让你失去了我,我真的很不想这样。就在此刻把思绪写下来(在办公司),我的眼泪也在不能控制的情况下掉了。如果不能继续成为最要好或只是普通朋友,希望思念就停留在过去一起快乐过的回忆里好吗?这是我唯一能做的。

My birthday wish for year 2008 – A good game of netball at CDSS. I played basketball last night, & I truly know how much I miss netball (Ok, I know it all the while, I even dreamt of playing!)

So this is 127th

•September 24, 2008 • Leave a Comment

Some randoms:

When it hits 130th, I’ll most probably change to another blog. If I’m not wrong, memory is depleting soon.

Japhethboyyy’s temper is becoming worse. When he grows older, I’m sure to show him his mum’s not someone he can meddle with, with my drastic temper. MUAHA. Not forgetting his irritable dad (WORSE!). Ok, whatever it is, we’re doing VERY WELL as parents to giving him what he has now, which is already very very good. So he, for sure, has a very good life. (: We gave him everything we’ve, even till the extent we’ve to struggle. But, and I know it’s all worthwhile. When our lives got better, we’ll give him more. (:

At work is not always good, but I’m still very fine with this environment. Bosses here are different. When I’m ordered to do something, I’ve to be pro-active enough and be a decision-maker for every follow-up works. Chim right, especially for a newbie. I feel like an idiot sometimes. ‘Cuz I keep asking about everything, & perhaps I already made my in-charge clutch her scalp?!

I like flirting, that’s for sure, but wait wait! I stop doing that since I’m together with Cy. Ohwells, I’m sure he LOVED (or LOVES) flirting too! If I ever caught him flirting, as a Libran, with an absolute Libran personality, guess guess what I would do! Grr!

Have been watching movies to falling asleep, drooling. I’m not too used to waking up early. Perhaps that’s why I tend to feel sleepy & fall asleep suddenly (with my hubby disturbing me). But thankfully, going to work now at 9am, I don’t need to wake as early as going to schools last time.

I’ve a bad news for the day - I NEED TO TEACH TONIGHT AT FAR FAR JURONG WEST. It’s really a big-time ‘wah lao weh’. It’s not the teaching that sucks, it’s the journey to there kills. And another fact about me, I don’t like taking buses. I would MUCH MUCH prefer MRTs (with available seats!)

Got bad news, definitely got good newssss too! I’m happy girl today. Partly because I ate bananas (bananas keep you young & happy, scientifically proven!) (A new beauty tips for women out there!), and of ‘cuz something else (it’s a biggie to me leh!) happened at work made me smile & I believe can make me stay happy throughout! Heh heh haah haah~ (:

Okay, I’m going down for a good ciggie break. Love oh love!

35 facts of JingleChan

•September 23, 2008 • Leave a Comment


7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

1. I’ve stretchmarks & they don’t seem to disappear AT ALL. argh.
2. I’m trying my very best to work hard for our future.
3. I’m in love to the fullest extent with my husband & son.
4. I’m penniless.
5. I can’t stand accusations.
6. I totally loathe the world of utter contempt & disdain.
7. I can’t decide whether I like singing, playing the piano or designing more.

7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME

1. Being poor.
2. Betrayal.
3. Becoming weaker each day.
4. Fat.
5. Being less confident as compared to the old Jingle.
6. My ugly past.
7. The untruth.

7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT

1. 亲爱的,那不是爱情
2. 酷爱
3. 伯乐
4. 为你写诗
5. Rusty Nails
6. 闪着泪光的决定
7. My Favorite Things

7 THINGS I LIKE MOST

1. 99 coloured paper roses.
2. Surprises.
3. My wedding ring.
4. Japheth’s growing up.
5. Moments spent with my husband & son.
6. Kisses & hugs.
7. Words (Truth) of assurance.

7 THINGS I SAY MOST.

1. 我爱你老公. Haha, don’t hairstand ah!!
2. Japhethboyyy~
3. Wha lao.
4. Bloody hell.
5. Ey, whatever la.
6. 晚安老公.
7. 我真的很累了. (I mean literally, I’ve to tell my husband this because he never fails to disturb me when I wanna sleep!)

傻女

•September 19, 2008 • Leave a Comment

傻女渴望轰轰烈烈的爱情。过来人却说,“自己选择的路,自己后悔。过来人的我为你心疼,爱你的我为你更后悔。。”

为了那么少的快乐,承担那么多的心痛,只为了谈一场轰轰烈烈的爱情。傻女都说值得。

乏味的感情没爱,只有喜欢。聪明的你对傻女说,“至少背叛发生时,不会死掉。”

 

 

我。。就是。

Only now I learnt

•September 16, 2008 • Leave a Comment


hideto matsumoto

I’m still down with a very bad a cough which already leads to asthma. I’m depending alot on my inhaler these days. I never knew this would happen to me. So to all women out there, after giving birth, you must die die take good care and build back your constituent, else you’ll suffer a whole lot, like me! I never believed what the older generations told me, don’t bathe during confinement, don’t drink cold drinks, don’t go out, must wear thick clothes, take chicken essence blah… I didn’t do all those above. Now, backaches, asthma, weariness…… All illness come find me. Haiyaaaa..

After checking out alot on JessiCAKE’s blog, I sure miss ‘em a whole lot. And how surprising, Nicholas and Zara who weren’t in my clique actually remember me! That’s quite nice (: JessiCAKE will be back on the 22nd or 23rd, I shall meet y’all after work, this time I promise! We shall play pool again ok? Or karaoke? Or movie? Ahh! I’m excited to meet y’all! I’m glad I still have many friends. Life without friends is very pathetic and saddening, and I feel sorry for those who have no friends… tsk tsk!

Ok, I’m going off. I need to see the doctor. Ciao!

 

(ps: I’m a happy girl because I ate bak gwa last night!)

sweetsweetlove

•September 11, 2008 • Leave a Comment

My dear husband sent me to work this morning. Sweetsweetlove. (:

Down with bad flu & sorethoart, my nose is 90% blocked. When I sneeze, I see blood! Argh. It’s SeoulGarden’s fault. Cy is having the same problems. Gosh, we’re like two-in-one. Even fall sick also together ah! Haah. Strepsils are my only saviours for the day, and I guess I’ve to say buh-bye to Marlboro Menthol for today (hopefully I can!).

Haven’t had the time to surf the net at home, so….. (OMG! My boss just walked in!) My heart suddenly beat faster!!!

Whoa man. Boss is back. And so is his daughter. His eldest daughter is a difficult person yo! She wants things to be done effectively. She just told me off, “everything you said to lao ban has to be very clear. Please be very sure of everything yourself before informing lao ban, tsk ok?”  Gosh la, I’m in deep s h i t. My in-charge is in a meeting!

Gotta poof for now. (not me not me)

First day of Work

•September 10, 2008 • Leave a Comment

First day of work, I’m in the office now. My in-charge is having a meeting, so I’m kinda free now except that I gotta read through the orientation file. If I continued my studies in NAFA, I could probably join this company in the designs department. But ohwells, I shall stick to what I’m doing. (:

Frankly speaking, I feel superly awkward with my new hairstyle. It’s a very WOW! thing, at least to me (on me!) I’ve the pictures of my bizarre head in my phone, will probably upload it tonight. For the time being, just await my pictures k? HAHAHA. Ok. Now I’m craving for a good fag, but I doubt I’m gonna do so ‘cuz… I just feel weird in this new place la.

Someone walked over to my desk area, I had to minimize it… Haha, so gui gui sui sui..

Ok, I don’t know what to continue. Shall ciao here.

(ps JessiCAKE, I didn’t get any puppies yet. Will be moving in beginning or mid-October. Probably then will consider. And I couldn’t reply your comment here, I don’t know why. So anyway, I’ll call you when I’m more free and so you’ve to wait quite long. Hahaha, ‘cuz Jingle Chua is never free!)

 

To bb, I Love You.